im scared to say that i want to kill myself because what if they take it as a joke? or even worse, they take me seriously and show me that they care and then i feel the need to pretend that it was a joke and nothing ever gets better

im scared to say that i want to kill myself because what if they take it as a joke? or even worse, they take me seriously and show me that they care and then i feel the need to pretend that it was a joke and nothing ever gets better is a neutral song by Delilah Ashe with a tempo of 146 BPM. It can also be used half-time at 73 BPM or double-time at 292 BPM. The track runs 2 minutes and 26 seconds long with a C♯/D♭ key and a minor mode. It has average energy and is not very danceable with a time signature of 4 beats per bar .